there are times when I ponder about the things I’ve done second guess myself, speculating all the possible out comes and I got to wondering if you do the same think of me, yeah I know it’s lame but I have this desire to write it down should some day, you come sniffing around asking of me to tell you how it is I feel asking of me “so what was the deal” and I’ll tell you… it isn’t pleasant to hear our time together is just a smear cause by the end you were unkind and in the end you let me down all the time and I’ll tell you what a failure I feel like failed to move the boulders and failed to carry you on my shoulders that you might bathe in the light of health and happiness and how I feel like I could have done more but by that time I was too tired and sore and how I should have fought for you to the end to make it work, but you weren’t worth it my friend maybe you were right and I am not so tough you said I ran like a coward when times got rough and I did break my vows to you and I did leave you behind and I promised I wouldn’t I guess I lied