No Doubt


By Lina



No doubt, one day I’ll move past this 
but for now it seems I am stuck 
not as resilient as you perhaps 
of course you’re not the one that’s been fucked 
out of home, car and possessions 
all that society deems is one’s worth 
not to mention the burden you placed upon me 
my fee for upsetting the earth 
which so firmly held you in position 
for the twelve years that we were wed 
well Mister here’s a news flash 
I am not glue to hold you together, nor am I a weld

I remember your cold flat words 
“these are consequences for decisions you made” 
you knew at the time, no fee was too grand, 
and there was nothing I wouldn’t pay 
but something I didn’t count on 
another fee I didn’t know exists 
is this feeling of being your victim 
as though you tied together my wrists 
as real as being stripped naked, 
there’s no where to hide when I am alone 
always seems cold now 
and in the wee hours of sleep, I sew 
this enormous beautiful cape 
as magnificent as nothing you’ve seen before 
stronger than you can imagine 
it will pick me up off the floor 
And I am sure this is beyond your vision 
perhaps more than you care to know 
but I am going to shake loose these thoughts 
I won’t be a victim forever more 
Cause forever, well it doesn’t really exist 
Like vows and promises 
evaporating to mist 
and I am gonna be incredible 
like a Superhero in my cloak 
gonna make it, break it and soar 
to the places where you wouldn’t dare look

And this anger is not what I wanted 
I know you would think it’s my cross to bear 
but one day you to will have to answer 
for the wrongs which we share

And a small part of me wants to see you 
one more time before I fly 
see you, hear you and know in my heart 
you do understand the why



Lina 11-20-2002
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